https://youtu.be/wB_JHAm7Izw Haven't written in a while. I've pretty much just been riding out the waves; at least my moods haven't charted like spikes. Here's a 20 minute vlog from tonight. Carrie ʕ•ᴥ•ʔ
The last time I saw my therapist, I was talking to her about fragmentation, how there are fragments of myself, subpersonalities that aren't integrated, and she suggested this article about addiction and the Internal Family System. A recent and widespread subpersonality method is Internal Family Systems therapy (IFS therapy), developed by Richard C. Schwartz. He … Continue reading Managers, Firefighters, Exiles, and the Self
Signs and symptoms Bipolar Disorder is a condition in which people experience abnormally elevated (manic or hypomanic) and, in many cases, abnormally depressed states for periods in a way that interferes with functioning. Not everyone's symptoms are the same, and there is no simple physiological test to co.nfirm the disorder. Bipolar Disorder can appear to … Continue reading A comprehensive understanding of Bipolar Disorder
"Please be careful with me; I'm sensitive, and I'd like to stay that way." — Jewel Ever since I can remember, I've been called "too sensitive." "Don't take everything so personally," they'd say. "They" didn't realize I was taking on "them." I was a mirror; I unconsciously reflected who they were back to them. "One … Continue reading My experience as an empath
In the right head space, I have clarity, and with that clarity I have much more access to the authentic part of me, my spirit. You would never know, if you knew me in person, just how down on myself I am. But all of these parts of my essence I've compiled are completely true, … Continue reading Self love and self compassion
https://youtu.be/GGorABGw418 Quotes from the video from Teal Swan "You refuse to cut your losses." [Wow. This might be the best description of depression I've ever seen.] "Whatever you resist, persists." "You're committed to a dead end." "Why would I scream if there's no one near to hear me?" "Basically you're aware that these little things … Continue reading Futility and depression are synonymous
Sensitivity is a gift. You’re not “too” sensitive. You are just enough sensitive.
Something that I feel has come up a lot over the last week or so, is this notion of being ‘too’ something. It was something that was mentioned in my writing on Tuesday and, unsurprisingly, something we discussed in therapy on Wednesday. Last weekend I found myself mentally compiling a list of everything I felt I was too…
- Too sensitive
- Too emotional
- Too caring
- Too tired
- Too disorganised
- Too big
- Too quiet
- Too open minded
I also felt that I do things too much, things like…
- Spending time mindlessly scrolling through Twitter or Instagram…
When you look at them in a list, when your logical brain
kicks in, it all seems rather ridiculous. How can any of us be too anything? We are who we are – I am a
sensitive, caring, disorganised and open-minded person who spends a lot…
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It is the third day of the A to Z challenge and it is time for the letter C! I am loving this challenge because I feel I can spread awareness around mental illnesses that are more than just a short term thing, but actually affect people’s lives often permanently. So today’s post is about C-PTSD (Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder). A lot of my blog has been around this disorder so far but I still feel like it deserves a place in this month’s challenge. So here we go!
Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder is linked to complex trauma. Unlike Post-traumatic stress disorder, that is based upon a single event, CPTSD is often linked to long-term childhood trauma. Complex trauma does not only mean long-term, it also means that the trauma happened in a situation where there was no way out. The person was trapped in the situation, and…
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Wise words from Charlotte Underwood.
“Suicide doesn’t end the pain, it passes it to someone else”
It seems that this quote pops up all around the media and within the mental health community.
Last year, a photo with this exact saying went viral, and it plastered the mental health community.
And I’ll be honest in saying that part of me agrees; because I lived through it.
When I was 18, my father passed away due to a successful suicide attempt.
I know that it was his last choice. He did all he could to live but it didn’t work, he was never the type to give up without a fight.
I’ll never be mad at his choice because, in truth, I completely understand it.
I battled suicidal thoughts throughout my teen years and even today, they can still try to creep up on me.
But while my father’s pain did end, I found a…
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