When I was 10, I was a Spice Girls fanatic (Geri especially). I was already on the Internet by now. I got into the school spelling bee but forgot the second "t" in otter. I'd always been reading a lot, and well. My brother and I played with the video camera a lot when we … Continue reading Significant times from my past
I wanted to use these articles to help educate both myself and others about this distressing, unpredictable feature of bipolar disorder. It has come to my attention because of the unique state I've been experiencing lately. Sometimes I feel [hypo]manic, then I can be triggered into depression, but I can also experience what seems to … Continue reading Mixed affective state 🎭
It is the third day of the A to Z challenge and it is time for the letter C! I am loving this challenge because I feel I can spread awareness around mental illnesses that are more than just a short term thing, but actually affect people’s lives often permanently. So today’s post is about C-PTSD (Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder). A lot of my blog has been around this disorder so far but I still feel like it deserves a place in this month’s challenge. So here we go!
Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder is linked to complex trauma. Unlike Post-traumatic stress disorder, that is based upon a single event, CPTSD is often linked to long-term childhood trauma. Complex trauma does not only mean long-term, it also means that the trauma happened in a situation where there was no way out. The person was trapped in the situation, and…
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Dear Carrie, Thank you for the long, relaxing bath by candlelight and music; I know your anxiety was feeling overwhelming tonight. You're so stressed after not working for 3 years, you doubt yourself and your natural initiative. Thank you for putting in the time and money to renew your Pharmacy Tech license. I know you … Continue reading Love letter to myself
In the funny way that life happens, I lapsed back onto alcohol the night of August 5th, just five days shy of my one year "soberversary." Misfires in our brain may cause misfires in our lives, but they need not be permanent. Seeing these misfires as opportunities for growth doesn't happen right away and sometimes … Continue reading Abandonment wounds and the recovery process
https://youtu.be/Mb6yDipWCL0 Originally published on September 27th, 2017 My latest (and, God-willing, last) sobriety date is 08/10/17. "There are those, too, who suffer from grave emotional disorders, but many of them do recover if they have the capacity to be honest." - Pg 58 of Alcoholics Anonymous It took me an hour and a half to … Continue reading My Experience, Strength, and Hope in Alcoholics Anonymous
I haven't worked since May 2016. It is not the first time in my adult history that I have been so disabled for so long. When I was fired for absenteeism from my first job in 2008, I wasn't able to stabilize (and get lucky again) until 2011. From May 2011 to January 2015, I … Continue reading The limitations of Bipolar Disorder
Written in Summer 2017 I was born to write; it is my oldest passion and it remains my truest. A writer's greatest handicap is writer's block. I have drawn before but it does not cause me suffering to not draw. I have painted before but I don't have to paint to express myself. But writing. … Continue reading What bipolar depression sounds like
