https://youtu.be/Mb6yDipWCL0 Originally published on September 27th, 2017 My latest (and, God-willing, last) sobriety date is 08/10/17. "There are those, too, who suffer from grave emotional disorders, but many of them do recover if they have the capacity to be honest." - Pg 58 of Alcoholics Anonymous It took me an hour and a half to … Continue reading My Experience, Strength, and Hope in Alcoholics Anonymous
I haven't worked since May 2016. It is not the first time in my adult history that I have been so disabled for so long. When I was fired for absenteeism from my first job in 2008, I wasn't able to stabilize (and get lucky again) until 2011. From May 2011 to January 2015, I … Continue reading The limitations of Bipolar Disorder
Written in Summer 2017 I was born to write; it is my oldest passion and it remains my truest. A writer's greatest handicap is writer's block. I have drawn before but it does not cause me suffering to not draw. I have painted before but I don't have to paint to express myself. But writing. … Continue reading What bipolar depression sounds like
I am so sleepy tonight after having spent Thanksgiving under the influence of at least a milligram of Xanax. I had a lovely panic attack in the car the moment Nick and I pulled up to his aunt's house, where everyone else was waiting. It was more like an outburst because I was as frustrated … Continue reading November 26th, 2015
Life is so much more pleasant for me now. I was in so much pain and the way it negatively affected other people in no way helped the situation. The stress the untreated bipolar put my body through, I was constantly complaining and wondering why I had to feel so old when I was supposed … Continue reading Freedom
My name is Carrie and I'm an alcoholic. Or would "addict" be more appropriate? Because, while I haven't touched the sauce in five months, I remain vulnerable to life's everyday discomforts. Or of still inhabiting the same skin that drank to live . . . where I would have died to drink. The power has … Continue reading May 29th, 2015
Welcome to my blog. I have only recently come out from under a very long, very difficult depression. My story is sadly not that unique, as it is standard to take several years for a patient to be correctly diagnosed with bipolar disorder. The reason this is so unfortunate is because antidepressants and mood stabilizers … Continue reading A new diagnosis, a new life
