Just because I talk faster than I think doesn't mean I didn't hear and understand you. By all means, tell me I'm not finished, I don't want to talk over you. I'm trying. I'm doing better. I want this to last. Have faith. I will do everything in my power not to miss 2 days … Continue reading Recovering from abandonment issues and C-PTSD with bipolar disorder
TLDR; missed medications, withdrawal, new relationship We've spent about 7 or 8 days together now and he still wants me. I stayed up at his house for an extra 2 days for the sake of his doggy and me not wanting to make him drive that hour and back with his herniated discs. That was … Continue reading I’ll never be loved again. That’s a lie.
When I was 10, I was a Spice Girls fanatic (Geri especially). I was already on the Internet by now. I got into the school spelling bee but forgot the second "t" in otter. I'd always been reading a lot, and well. My brother and I played with the video camera a lot when we … Continue reading Significant times from my past
August 2019 ⬇️ (stabilized) 225 lbs Lamictal 150 MG (twice daily) Trileptal 300 MG (twice daily) Effexor 225 MG Remeron 7.5 MG July 2019 ⬇️ (moderate depression) 220 lbs Lamictal 150 MG (twice daily) Trileptal 300 MG (twice daily) Effexor 225 MG Klonopin .50 MG (twice daily, PRN) Remeron 7.5 MG June 2019 ⬇️ (moderate … Continue reading Psych history (September 2014 to present)
I haven't worked since May 2016. It is not the first time in my adult history that I have been so disabled for so long. When I was fired for absenteeism from my first job in 2008, I wasn't able to stabilize (and get lucky again) until 2011. From May 2011 to January 2015, I … Continue reading The limitations of Bipolar Disorder
"Cannabidiol (CBD) oil is a product that's derived from cannabis. It's a type of cannabinoid, which are the chemicals naturally found in marijuana plants. Even though it comes from marijuana plants, CBD doesn't create a 'high' effect or any form of intoxication — that's caused by another cannabinoid, known as THC." Source: Healthline Hello again. … Continue reading CBD oil and some sense of stability 🌱
This week has been rough emotionally, as it feels like I was teased with a healthy brain and then it was promptly taken away again. It is so painful to have to feel like that, especially after having just climbed out of a very long severe depression. I would say it's unfair, but who ever … Continue reading It hurts when I sleep