Dear Carrie, Thank you for the long, relaxing bath by candlelight and music; I know your anxiety was feeling overwhelming tonight. You're so stressed after not working for 3 years, you doubt yourself and your natural initiative. Thank you for putting in the time and money to renew your Pharmacy Tech license. I know you … Continue reading Love letter to myself
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๐ Reblog: Life with Mental Illness: Why Do We Accept Being Loved in Halves?
More good inspiration via Hannah.
One of my favorite writers, April Green, wrote a short poem that really spoke to me.
And the moon looked down at her and said: โyou are too full of everything that makes you whole to ever be loved in halves.โ
I sent it to my friend, Sarah Snow,ย who is known for creating visually inspiring videos, each one with a resonating message. She was just as inspired, and we connected with April. Sarah, alongside artist Donna Adi, created a video with a profound message about what itโs like when the person you love doesnโt love you back.
The response to the video, with over 2 million views, clearly shows the number of people who can relate to this message, especially those of us living with a mental illness.
As confident as I may appear to many people, it is difficult to admit that I have always acceptedโฆ
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My poetry inspired by Peter Steele ๐ฅ๐๐
October Rust by Type O Negative ๐ฅ๐๐
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