Just got off video chat with my dad. I encouraged us to discuss civilly the divided narratives going around and the tomfoolery with that bill. Basically what it comes down to is ethics and priorities and definitely self care. This is a financial AND health care crisis simultaneously, maybe obviously. That's really tough. But you … Continue reading Coronavirus 🦠
I'm a fine ass motherfucka at recovery I got this right I'm all right because I been to the bottom and I never imagined I'd ever vibe and be rational at the same time it's some heavy spiritual awakening shit but sorry New Agers I couldn't have survived without my pharmaceutical medicine so you can … Continue reading Riding this vibe
I last relapsed 5 days short of a year, and now I've made it to 11 months. I've been trying this for 5 years. Let's not do that again. Alcoholism is lonely. Triggers are temporary. Understand that with bipolar disorder, more than half develop a substance abuse disorder, and if I want to shut off … Continue reading Don’t interrupt the process
I have come so far and I'm finally able to really own my progress. I'm proud of Carrie. I stay away from booze, and if I slipped it was for a very brief period. I'm a month and a half away from a YEAR again. I'm still alive. I came very close to taking myself … Continue reading Bipolar in order
I can't believe I made it to the other side; I've reached stability. It's kind of surreal. I have accepted that I'll have bipolar disorder for the rest of my life, but as long as I am able to keep up this treatment regimen and as long as I keep staying away from alcohol I … Continue reading To everything there is a season
Weird day. Nothing happened, just how I felt. The usual. I'm emotionally drained right now after getting 60% through A Woman Under the Influence from 1974. Gena Rowlands' performance is breaking my heart, just like in The Notebook. Why did this brilliant film go under the radar and I'd never heard of it before?? Too … Continue reading A Woman Under the Influence
https://youtu.be/UD1TgRPHlGk I can't get out of my bed, think there's magnets in my mattress Might as well just be a casket for all I care Oh no, here we go again The bad thoughts are creeping in The bad thoughts are creeping in When I feel crazy, I hide it, then fall apart in private … Continue reading Manic by Coleman Hell
Are You Highly Sensitive and Bipolar? Six essential strategies for coping. By Deborah Ward from Psychology Today, originally published Jul 28, 2017 Highly sensitive people absorb a lot of information from the world around us. Consequently, we can easily become anxious, stressed, depressed, or overwhelmed. Our sensitive nature also means we feel other peoples’ emotions … Continue reading “Are You Highly Sensitive and Bipolar?” from Psychology Today
On 7cups.com, the question was asked, "What does being Bipolar feel like?" These are some of the answers I resonated with most. juhirashOA "I don't think there is an average description for being Bipolar that fits everybody. But mostly, it's a constant battle. You never really understand why you are sad but you keep being … Continue reading Q&A: What does being Bipolar feel like?
“When you first possess me, I thrive. I’m at my best and in my element. All shadows of doubt and depression, of loneliness and weariness fade away. I am reborn, reincarnated, reinvigorated. I am a newer and better self. This is the self that they love. Come, sweet Mania, and revive the dormant self within me that is begging to get out.”
I can sense you long before your arrival. You send secret messages to me taunting me with your distant presence as you inch toward me. Like a sultry lover you take your time, teasing me, flirting with me, sending sweet thrills through my body and mind before dissipating into the night once more.
I know you are there, simmering away, gathering heat and energy, gathering momentum before exploding into my being, overwhelming me and possessing me. Even though I sensed you coming, it still always takes me by surprise once your iron grip tightens around my mind, squeezing out every last essence of my sense and judgement. I still feel shocked when I catch myself in thoughts and acts that you orchestrated, making me perform like your puppet, your plaything.
I crave the reckless abandon. I long for the freedom, the vigor, the sexuality. I yearn for the…
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