Futility and depression are synonymous

https://youtu.be/GGorABGw418 Quotes from the video from Teal Swan "You refuse to cut your losses." [Wow. This might be the best description of depression I've ever seen.] "Whatever you resist, persists." "You're committed to a dead end." "Why would I scream if there's no one near to hear me?" "Basically you're aware that these little things … Continue reading Futility and depression are synonymous

πŸ”ƒ Reblog: Dear You, Who Might Also Be Depressed

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Some blog posts are planned far in advance while others spill from my mind and into my keyboard immediately for you to see. This one is spilling. This one is for the people who feel stuck. This one is for the people who understand depression.

Dear You,

Depression is real. Your pain is real. It is all valid. Please, listen to me: those nagging thoughts of worthlessness, don’t let them too far in. Your pain is valid, but those nagging thoughts aren’t true.

I know this all too well. I understand your pain. The self-doubt creeps in. The worthlessness creeps in. It can feel like the most real thing in the world. It can feel like the only real thing in the world.

All the pain can make us forget that hope is real. We forget. We get covered in all the bad. Sometimes the bad can smother us. It…

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Psych history (September 2014 to present)

August 2019 ⬇️ (stabilized) 225 lbs Lamictal 150 MG (twice daily) Trileptal 300 MG (twice daily) Effexor 225 MG Remeron 7.5 MG July 2019 ⬇️ (moderate depression) 220 lbs Lamictal 150 MG (twice daily) Trileptal 300 MG (twice daily) Effexor 225 MG Klonopin .50 MG (twice daily, PRN) Remeron 7.5 MG June 2019 ⬇️ (moderate … Continue reading Psych history (September 2014 to present)

πŸ”ƒ Reblog: Too… Sensitive.

Sensitivity is a gift. You’re not “too” sensitive. You are just enough sensitive.

Meditative Owl

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Something that I feel has come up a lot over the last week or so, is this notion of being β€˜too’ something. It was something that was mentioned in my writing on Tuesday and, unsurprisingly, something we discussed in therapy on Wednesday. Last weekend I found myself mentally compiling a list of everything I felt I was too…

  • Too sensitive
  • Too emotional
  • Too caring
  • Too tired
  • Too disorganised
  • Too big
  • Too quiet
  • Too open minded

I also felt that I do things too much, things like…

  • Thinking
  • Procrastinating
  • Spending time mindlessly scrolling through Twitter or Instagram…

When you look at them in a list, when your logical brain
kicks in, it all seems rather ridiculous. How can any of us be too anything? We are who we are – I am a
sensitive, caring, disorganised and open-minded person who spends a lot…

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