August 2019 ⬇️ (stabilized) 225 lbs Lamictal 150 MG (twice daily) Trileptal 300 MG (twice daily) Effexor 225 MG Remeron 7.5 MG July 2019 ⬇️ (moderate depression) 220 lbs Lamictal 150 MG (twice daily) Trileptal 300 MG (twice daily) Effexor 225 MG Klonopin .50 MG (twice daily, PRN) Remeron 7.5 MG June 2019 ⬇️ (moderate … Continue reading Psych history (September 2014 to present)
APRIL 13TH Saturday is ruled by the god of Saturn. I was born on a Saturday and I was born under the planet of Saturn. I am Saturnine. And he's a really tough dad. Making others feel good makes me feel good. My friends are used to the fact that I'm a cry baby. Good … Continue reading Deep thoughts by Carrie
I wanted to use these articles to help educate both myself and others about this distressing, unpredictable feature of bipolar disorder. It has come to my attention because of the unique state I've been experiencing lately. Sometimes I feel [hypo]manic, then I can be triggered into depression, but I can also experience what seems to … Continue reading Mixed affective state 🎭
It's been a while since I've written and I've decided to try again. I'm still lying in bed most, if not every, day, perusing the Internet, especially Redditesque stuff and true crime on YouTube. I haven't been to therapy since last fall after reaching that impasse in development. I don't see my family, besides my … Continue reading Writer’s block again
I haven't worked since May 2016. It is not the first time in my adult history that I have been so disabled for so long. When I was fired for absenteeism from my first job in 2008, I wasn't able to stabilize (and get lucky again) until 2011. From May 2011 to January 2015, I … Continue reading The limitations of Bipolar Disorder
"Cannabidiol (CBD) oil is a product that's derived from cannabis. It's a type of cannabinoid, which are the chemicals naturally found in marijuana plants. Even though it comes from marijuana plants, CBD doesn't create a 'high' effect or any form of intoxication — that's caused by another cannabinoid, known as THC." Source: Healthline Hello again. … Continue reading CBD oil and some sense of stability 🌱
I vow to never take another SSRI, no matter what! I will handle my chronic pain and depression/ anxiety in other ways. In my opinion, Cymbalta, and the withdrawal, is worse than the disease for which I took it.
I have a chronic pain condition. It came out of nowhere. I didn’t even know the condition existed. Similar to fibromyalgia, it is specific to certain parts of the body instead of widespread. I was prescribed Cymbalta by a doctor at a prestigious Pain Management Clinic. Cymbalta worked immediately. I was happy to resume a normal life, pain-free.
A few months later I began to feel dizzy. Then weak. There was a constant low-grade headache. (We won’t even talk about constipation.) I ignored the malaise until one day when I nearly ended up in the hospital. I had been working hard, exerting myself, something I don’t usually do. I thought…
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I had suspected I was rapid-cycling bipolar type 2 (four mood episodes in a year), but after analyzing my mood charts from May and June, it looks more like ultra-rapid (four mood episodes in a month). This explains why it's been 2 years since I've worked, but it doesn't make me feel any less guilty … Continue reading Ultra-rapid cycling
Written in Summer 2017 I was born to write; it is my oldest passion and it remains my truest. A writer's greatest handicap is writer's block. I have drawn before but it does not cause me suffering to not draw. I have painted before but I don't have to paint to express myself. But writing. … Continue reading What Bipolar Depression sounds like