Tonight I have been suffering with intense depression and restless anxiety, but just a few hours ago I found a lovely angel on YouTube, an "ASMRtist" that uses gentle, soothing sound effects and role plays as she grooms you into total relaxation. I have definitely added her to my Emergency Depression Kit playlist. If you … Continue reading ASMR for relaxation and comfort
I've been suffering from writer's block for a while, mostly because of the numbness I've been feeling ever since I started taking the antipsychotic, Latuda. It feels like all the remaining life force I had has been sucked out of me. It did its job by silencing any hint of hypomania, though. What it's left … Continue reading Writer’s block
I just observed that it's been over a month since I last posted an original writing. This may be the longest stretch of depression, absent of any significant hypomania, since I was re-diagnosed bipolar in April. This, despite the dosages of my medications being increased on a monthly basis. I met someone last night who … Continue reading When it won’t stop raining
More good inspiration via Hannah.
One of my favorite writers, April Green, wrote a short poem that really spoke to me.
And the moon looked down at her and said: ‘you are too full of everything that makes you whole to ever be loved in halves.’
I sent it to my friend, Sarah Snow, who is known for creating visually inspiring videos, each one with a resonating message. She was just as inspired, and we connected with April. Sarah, alongside artist Donna Adi, created a video with a profound message about what it’s like when the person you love doesn’t love you back.
The response to the video, with over 2 million views, clearly shows the number of people who can relate to this message, especially those of us living with a mental illness.
As confident as I may appear to many people, it is difficult to admit that I have always accepted…
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My favorite, having not changed since I was a young girl, haha; it's absolutely ridiculous First saw this mockumentary sometime in high school and it still makes me laugh, it's so silly Has remained a favorite since I first saw this in middle school; emotionally gripping, ethical This one really intrigued me during my Southern … Continue reading Carrie’s 25 favorite films, and why
In the funny way that life happens, I lapsed back onto alcohol the night of August 5th, just five days shy of my one year "soberversary." Misfires in our brain may cause misfires in our lives, but they need not be permanent. Seeing these misfires as opportunities for growth doesn't happen right away and sometimes … Continue reading Abandonment wounds and the recovery process
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(I wrote this when I was only 21) Released on August 20th, 1996, through Roadrunner Records, the self-produced October Rust by Type O Negative is without a doubt my favorite album of all-time. Although it has been reviewed hundreds of times over the past thirteen years, I felt an overwhelming desire to compose the most … Continue reading October Rust by Type O Negative 🥀🍂🍃
Recently I had the honor of being nominated by "Lotus Flower" (@LotusFl63450259 on 🐦) at My Fitness Journey with Fibro for the Sunshine Blogger Award. She and I both strive to stay above water and shine despite our bipolar disorder diagnoses. She also battles fibromyalgia and I deal with chronic inflammation attributed to the bipolar. … Continue reading My Sunshine Blogger Award nominations 🌞